it's funny how the past can never seem to leave you alone,how something you thought you left far far away comes back to haunt you.maybe the word to describe it wouldn't be funny,maybe it would just be sad.
how miserable those people must be.those people who can't find anything else to do but bitch about people that they once claimed to be true to,to love as friends,to hold close to their side.how miserable they must be to turn around and say mean things about their own friends,and to go against all the apologies they ever made,to forget in that instant,all the fun,all the memories they had.and how miserable they are,to read this,and to instantly claim that we never shared anything past mutual hurt and anger.
and how foolish of me,to think that for once,you guys had changed,that you had finally accepted the flaws i had as a person,that we could finally heal the cracks between us.but it turns out,not only could you not see past that anger,the facade that you put up in front of me,was just a ruse to assure yourself that you guys still had friends,you guys were still well-liked.i can honestly say i tried my best to be your friend,i can even go to the extent of humiliating myself just to bow down to your whims and fancies.
but guess what.i have a backbone now.i can survive on my own,and i have honestly seen how you guys have stripped me of my self-esteem slowly over these years,how i've bent over backwards just to make you guys happy when you hardly returned the favours.but i've seen past the masks,and seen the ugly people underneath.and truthfully,i can't bring myself to give a shit about what you guys say about me,because i know that there will be people who love me,there will be people who actually treasure me as afriend and a human being.even if you guys think there is nobody who does that now,i believe that there will be in the future.
so goodbye to you,and your lies.i wish you the best in life. :)
